I know that you are sad and hurting, and have been this way for awhile. I also recognize this despair has become comfortable for you, almost like a warm blanket you have pulled over yourself to try and keep you hidden from the world. There are times you cry out in pain and long to end your suffering, and try chasing away the sharp edges with pills and then the next day discover your wish was not granted, and you wake once again, pulling yourself out of bed to face yet another day.
I have watched this same drama over and over again for many years. The melody seldom changes, even though there are periods of many months, and sometimes years, when I don’t see or connect with you. But then something happens, we reconnect, and after a brief period of joy and laughter, the sadness creeps in again, and takes over your life.
I have seen this same scene play over and over again. It makes me want to shake you from your stupor and say, “Enough! Wake up! It is time to transition to the next scene in your life, and get on with the story plot!” But it as if you don't hear, and you go back to repeating the same lines, over and over and over again. The continual whining and victimization has lost its lusture.
I wish you could see and know what I see and know of who you really are inside that shell of a body.
It is as if I could see you before you were born, saying “Choose me to be your buddy! Choose me! I won’t let you down!”
But the journey was more difficult than you expected. You became trapped in the normal challenges of everyday life and now have swallowed the bitter pill of continual fear and despair. You have forgotten how to be the real you.
I wish you could see how now is the most remarkable time on earth to be alive….EVER! I wish you could remember why you wanted to be here and take this journey. I wish you could beyond that familiar and comfortable despair you have wrapped yourself in and could see there is much more to choose than that old worn out blanket of hopelessness.
I would hate to have you miss the most exciting time on the planet. You have the chance to be on the front row of the action. Originally you begged to be part of the story, but then you decided you just wanted to watch and observe. You still have the chance to be seated in the front row and even partake and help make things happen, if you could just put aside that false personality, even for just a bit of relief.
I keep hoping you will have the strength to just look up and see the stars, and when you do, throw that blanket of despair from your shoulders. I keep expecting that something will stir within you to help you recognize you need to turn off that ticker tape of negativity that seems to be running in your mind. I want to reconnect to the person who has become buried deep within you.
I don't want you to miss out on the sole reason you wanted to be born at this time, on this continent, and being right here where the action is. I want you to come back to us so you can participate in the greatest celebration humanity has ever known.
Come back to the world of the living and re-align yourself to who you really are. There are many looking forward to cheering you on.
